Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Don't worry, I am taking care of myself...

I've been with no internet service for EVER and am using an unreliable old computer, so am not counting on the problem being solved. But needed to shoot a brief update. Some of the symptoms from my concussion have improved, but others have worsened. PTSD symptoms have increased. It has become debilitating and is scary. I'm being referred to a specialist for testing. Here is where I stant, in a huuuuge nutshell:
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Professional Implications? I am a counselor. I can't do my job properly. I can't function properly. I may have a TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury) that will NEVER go away.
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Personal Implications? I make lists or I forget things. I forget words, mid sentence. I forget the subject of a conversation. I can't sleep. I generalize and see my soon-to-be-ex everywhere. I'm continually angry, scared, suspicious, and close to tears.
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Interpersonal Inplications: I misunderstand what others are saying, I forget conversations that I don't write down, I'm terrified of losing friends or forgetting appointments.
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What am I doing: Seeing an awesome therapist 2 days a week & talking daily, seeing my doctor regarding medication and prescription issues, puppy attention for stress relief, cleaned the whole house out of the DH's crap-ola. got new furniture for dining and living room - will add more asap, will be selling jewelry soon for extra $$, some contact with peers wt work, music and my new massage chair. Basically I do whatever I need to relax (even if I can't sleep) sp that I can heal.
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Sis - call me any afternoon or evening - I'm not working!! just be prepared for tears!! And NO - no retaliation - I closed that chapter and have moved onwards - THAT chapter you can help me with!!
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I LOVE YOU ALL

4 comments:

connie said...

Hi ya sis, I am able to get here at work, I'm working now. Gonna plan on calling you Thurs. night, I work every Thurs. morning not 2nd. My Robert usally calls on Thurs. too!!You keep your chin up, better days ahead!Happy days too!!!!Love ya girl, talk to you on Thurs. evening sometime. Hope your feeling better, physically also.I can't believe he dare do that to you, all you have done for him!!!!

Mrs. Who said...

God bless you, dahlin', for wanting to move forward. It's the only way.

Life on Pause said...

Hun I actually know where you're coming from on this one...The attacks take away my memory...the possible multiple concussions can't have helped.

I don't know if would help you to talk it out with a compleate stranger? But I wanna let you know I'm here for you, and you're in my prayers.

TTFN
-Bri

Laura said...

You guys are are all awesome! Thank you SOOO much for the positivie words and support. I can't tell you how much I need and appreciate them!

Laura