I think I described things well last night. Because it is the light of day, I am feeling fine. I am at work and preparing to see clients. I am tired and my head hurts, but I'm doing fine. I am back in a thinking mode and am fine with that. It works for me! And I think it IS healthy for my clients. Don't get me wrong. I'm not a robot, working without empathy or any sense of feelings whatsoever. I am just closing off my own emotional baggage. I wish that I could do it forever. It feels good-it makes me feel stronger and more in control. But night time is difficult. Things are quieter and there are less distractions. The emotions take control sometimes and they overwhelm me sometimes. I am learning some skills, though, that I am hoping will help.
I am going to start seeing 5 families next week. That doesn't sound like a lot, but that means I will be seeing 12 children. And their parents. It is kind of overwhelming. But I know I can handle it. I am not sure I will be able to come back full time in 2 weeks like I originally planned, though. I get sooo tired.